I’m not going to say this week was easy. In fact it was a lot more emotional than I was expecting and damn if I know why, it’s been more than a year. Maybe there are times I miss my dad more and this week was his birthday, so I couldn’t stop being sad and tearful and then something did happen. I’m not sure if you believe in messages or people who come into your life at the right time, but in all that despair I felt hope. It’s hard to feel hope sometimes because choosing to follow a dream is not easy when no one understands it but the people who have followed your path. I’m lucky to have friends, awesome amazing Rita nominee friends I might add, who understand.
When I tell people I quit my full time job to follow a dream, they say, wow that’s so nice. I know it is because I believe in myself and I know that I will succeed. It’s a burning inside my gut that’s like a monster that needs to be fed and if it means I have to do what it takes to achieve that dream, then it’s what I will do. For me I can see the end result, I can see the end goal. I visualise and feel my success and if I close my eyes, it’s there with a certainty. Unfortunately no one else lives in my mind. No one can see the amazing future ahead.
So you’re wondering what the message was right? Well it came on dad’s birthday. Had me in tears but it was something I couldn’t refute. All I can tell you is that things happen in life that change you. You grow and change and evolve, but what doesn’t change is the love a parent has for a child. I’m not sure if you believe in the afterlife or angels and spirit guides, but I do believe that sometimes it’s possible for people to be supported in achieving their goals, or be given support when things get tough. So you might think this is waffling on, or you might take a moment to breath and take in your surroundings and be thankful for what you have in life and the people who share it.
Life is too short not to make the best of every opportunity you’re given. Yes it’s hard. Damn it’s hard. Ask me how hard it is to try and live a dream when everyone who is meant to care for you is against you, but hey, if you don’t believe in yourself, who will?
You take care and be safe- much love and hugs.