Achieving what you believe

nelson quotes-4For me it’s countdown time. The last year has been challenging to say the least. Sometimes as hard headed as I am- I still haven’t learnt how to say No. I have this tendency to love helping people. Must be a genetic defect because mum has the same problem. Or maybe it comes with the nurse and need to heal thing. Whatever it is, I think I can say without a doubt that I have a weakness for saying yes, when I actually should be taking care of myself. Lucky for me my daughter¬† makes sure I don’t overdo it.

So the next few months are going to be jam packed. To start it off, I get to go for my First Australian Romance Writers Conference in Melbourne. I’m actually looking forward to it. Normally I’d be scared because I’m traveling alone and I don’t know anyone in Melbourne. RWA conferences are usually much bigger than RWNZ so it’s bound to be scary, but I’ve grown up somewhere along the way. Maybe I got better at faking being okay when I’m not, either way, it works:-)

When I get back we have our own RWNZ conference and as I’ve been planning it with some wonderful people all year, I am hoping for a fabulous conference. I also get to handover to the new President of RWNZ and get to have my life¬† back again. I won’t be able to be called the President anymore, but between you and me, I really won’t miss it.

Then there’s Armageddon with my baby girl. We get to meet the original Flash, stars from Arrow, and a few other popular TV shows. Last time I met McGyver, shook his hand and knew anything was possible as long as you tried hard.

Looking in, people might think life is perfect. I wish I could tell you it’s a box of birds. Life is never perfect and nothing is as it seems. People who make it look easy just struggled harder so it seems that way. People who are confident are really insecure at times and wonder when it’s all going to come tumbling down.

I can tell you that life is what you make of it and that you should believe in yourself and visualise what you want and it will happen. I can tell you it works and you might think I’m a little quirky.

But that being said, whatever you believe there’s only one thing that has to be important in your life. Be positive in your own life and don’t wish negativity on anyone else. Life is way to short for that sort of carry on.

Blessings.

 

 

 

Coffee cups Saturday- When it gets hard!!!

I’m not going to say this week was easy. In fact it was a lot more emotional than I was expecting and damn if I know why, it’s been more than a year. Maybe there are times I miss my dad more and this week was his birthday, so I couldn’t stop being sad and tearful and then something did happen. I’m not sure if you believe in messages or people who come into your life at the right time, but in all that despair I felt hope. It’s hard to feel hope sometimes because choosing to follow a dream is not easy when no one understands it but the people who have followed your path. I’m lucky to have friends, awesome amazing Rita nominee friends I might add, who understand.

When I tell people I quit my full time job to follow a dream, they say, wow that’s so nice. I know it is because I believe in myself and I know that I will succeed. It’s a burning inside my gut that’s like a monster that needs to be fed and if it means I have to do what it takes to achieve that dream, then it’s what I will do. For me I can see the end result, I can see the end goal. I visualise and feel my success and if I close my eyes, it’s there with a certainty. Unfortunately no one else lives in my mind. No one can see the amazing future ahead.

So you’re wondering what the message was right? Well it came on dad’s birthday. Had me in tears but it was something I couldn’t refute. All I can tell you is that things happen in life that change you. You grow and change and evolve, but what doesn’t change is the love a parent has for a child. I’m not sure if you believe in the afterlife or angels and spirit guides, but I do believe that sometimes it’s possible for people to be supported in achieving their goals, or be given support when things get tough. So you might think this is waffling on, or you might take a moment to breath and take in your surroundings and be thankful for what you have in life and the people who share it.

Life is too short not to make the best of every opportunity you’re given. Yes it’s hard. Damn it’s hard. Ask me how hard it is to try and live a dream when everyone who is meant to care for you is against you, but hey, if you don’t believe in yourself, who will?

You take care and be safe- much love and hugs.